Tired but trying

They say “what doesn’t kills you makes you stronger” but they are so wrong what doesn’t kill you just does not kill you and that may be all you get. Except sometimes what does not kill you maims you, cripples you, leaves you weak and makes you angry, sad; feel cheated.

Some things that didn’t kill me did come so close that it’s still damaging. They didn’t all make me better some made me worse and bitter. Isn’t that okay, cant something just break you? The world wants us to believe that admitting defeat makes us weak. However, you just can’t be positive all the time we may be angry, frustrated, sad, annoyed, scared, anxious or any of the numerous negative feelings. Having feelings does not make a negative person. It only states how human you are.

I feel its okay to wish the nightmare to end, to pray furiously for the world to stop testing you, to cry yourself to sleep every night; to say aloud “I have had enough, I can’t take it anymore”. Bleed and bleed openly, there can and should be pride in vulnerability.

How can anyone be certain for sure that what I been through would make you kill yourself but then pain is relative.  So until you are broken, you don’t know what you are made of. Being broken gives you the ability to build yourself all over again. And strength for it all comes from good things family, friends, books and satisfaction of a wonderful moment.

They say “what doesn’t kills you makes you stronger” if that’s true then I am expecting my superpowers and cape any day now!

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19 thoughts on “Tired but trying

  1. albert says:

    You are absolutely right about the good things. They are “family, friends, books and satisfaction of a wonderful moment.” I wish you many wonderful moments. When they come, I try to share them. Your writing here turns out to be one of those moments for me. I’m glad that I visited today!

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  2. delphini510 says:

    Srijana, You can rave into the night. Cry hot tears but never stay bitter or angry for long.
    It makes you ill – all over again.
    You will soon get your cape to show you did it.
    Miriam

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  3. glowofmind says:

    I totally agree with you Srijana. There goes a saying that whatever happens happens for a reason (for better). Things do not happen for a reason. However, its up to us to see the brighter or a darker side. Lets bring out the better of it. Cheers!

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  4. Ellen @ If It Brings You Joy says:

    I find that if I consciously practice having a mindsets of positivity, when hardship happens I’m better able to deal with it.

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